Rojak

today i had gut feeling the whole daytime
from 6:30am until 4:00pm
keep going washroom
nervous
feel like i am the character in "Rush Hour"
wonder how i go through these...
see~~

9am genetics test--- had not finish studying
Late for test
Cant finish answering
left half of the questions blanked

11am preparing Chinese Classical Fiction (CCF) presentation
( didn't have time to prepare last night)

1pm late for lab (actually the lab is 12-3pm)
studied for CCF test in lab (not listen to classmates' presentations)

1:45pm leave early for CCF test
(never studied for it before, cam...)

2:10pm CCF test

3:20 pm CCF presentation
Kena shot....Boom Boom Boom...
they shotted in a nice manner
but it's not a nice feeling
you kena shot and unable to defend most of the time
aiyo dont know how to describe that feeling
but i felt my report was still ok
until the lecturer said
"your title seems covered everything completely
but when doing so, it will be不够深入，流于表面"
BOOM!!!
then i know my problem liao
流于表面is a big problem you know
to say in a nice way it is不够深入
to say in an impolite way it is 肤浅 haha

here's the difference between science and art (particularly, language)
when u take science tests of essay type
u can put in all the possible answers inside
as long as among that list of answer u wrote the key points
then you will score
it doesn't matter that whether it is redundant or not related
coz u wont be deducted mark due to the redundancy

it's different in language courses
those require you to be very specific and particular
if u put something no related
then you are strayed from the point
so your mind must be very sharp and very fast
to support and defend your points
you need to deal with theme, expression, mind, suitability of words, the whole picture etc. these kind of abstract things
pengsan @_@
in comparison, science just deal with solid lab work
which one is easier?

so dont play play and look down to those language students ah
中文系不是好读的

anyway i realised my weaknesses today
first, i need to sharpen my mind to look things in depth
state things sharp and straight to the point
reduce redundancy
quantity ≠ quality
thats the big problem in me
i used to throw out all the things in my head
from my writings you can see lo
everything mix up without giving a clear theme
very messy
like rojak
it is still a long distance for me to write an successful fiction

second, improve my eloquence,
don't use so much "Em... Em... Em"
so that one day i will have a silver tongue like ah lan wuahaha

third, improve my language
coz i discovered that i cant speak pure chinese/english/malay
no matter which language i use, i would mix all the languages together
u know it is not good to speak like that
if want to speak chinese, then speak it beautifully
if want to speak english, then speak it purely
if want to speak malay, then speak it fluently
this is called professional
(and i dont think things like Singlish or Manglish is something to be proud of
those shouldn't be called as 'language'
they are rojak)

fourth, increase my efficiency
in doing assignments, tests and everything
it's an another big problem for me
since secondary school (or maybe primary?) i never manage to finish subjective exams in time
always hand in homeworks and assignments at the last minute
wei...saying this only until the last few months of study life...will it be too late? haha
nevermind la...this still applies to the doing of paperwork, projects etc. in my later working life

Em... it's nice right?
i get shotted but realized a lot of things

I am writing things messily again
oh no~~